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It's been a trying month, dealing with loss and trying to find balance. But I have to say everything has kind of appeared for me at the perfect time, and all the impulsivity I feared might have been lost, is in fact, not. I'm sure you'll see the fruits of it on here soon enough. As for what's new, a lot, and some old, and some brought back to life and some gone forever.

Some digging deep. Some letting go. Some change. Some pain. 

But all in a lifetime.  

Oh May, I can't say I'm sad to see you go. 

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I don't know what to say about these last two weeks except that I haven't had nearly enough time to read. I did do a lot of other things like visit Joshua Tree, and San Diego, and spent a good amount of time on the beach in Venice. Good news = Adventure. Other Good News = I'm now back home reading books. Since being back I've almost finished Big Magic. Thirty pages to go and I'll probably write an epic blog post about how obsessed I am with it. I've already mentally written it, if I'm being totally honest. Other than that, I'm a tired one, glad to be back on a regular schedule, and getting things done. Oh, and the mutts are here, so that's always a good thing. I've learned about myself that I need certain comforts, good coffee, long walks, privacy, and dogs are high among these needs. Call it a learning experience. 

Since slacking on posting has been a theme for me, I'll share this sentiment:

"I can either live a drama, or write one." Elizabeth Gilbert

Exactly. EXACTLY.

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I'm so late posting the most popular stuff this month. I did take a screen shot on the first for the sake of accuracy, because it would bother me otherwise. Oh, and it was my birthday. So, I can forgive myself. Speaking of my birthday, it was wonderful. I spent it at The Hobbit House on AirBnb. I was planning to take a solo hike through Malibu and contemplate my 20's but instead I got really, really drunk with some fast friends who were kind enough to plan a birthday for me, when I let it slip that my uncle texted me 'Happy Birthday'. I'm not great at keeping secrets. They had about an hour to get it all together, but I got a cake, champagne, an adventure, and a party. It was magical, and spontaneous, and required me to deviate from my prior plans to go inward. Steering from the original plan is not something I'm great at. I had a whole equation worked out x = amount of time with friends + y = amount of time with family + z = amount of time for myself. XYZ = my birthday plans. So, this birthday was a good exercise in going with the flow and all the wonderful things that can happen from staying in the moment instead of rehashing the past. I think there's a time and place for both, but also be available for those who want to do something for you now. You snooze, you lose. And spontaneity is highly under-rated, under-utilized, and you don't always get a second chance. That's what my 20's have taught me. Some things only happen once and I'd rather be the person who jumps and falls, instead of the one who is overly committed to plans that seem guaranteed to work. I don't think there are any guarantees. Not that that should scare you, quite the opposite actually. I think it's liberating. So many follow the beaten path laid before them. All the things in life that make perfect sense, and should work out can leave you flat on your ass in middle age with not much to your name, except completing some mission you never set out for that would make the younger version of you shiver in the terror of what the future might hold. 

Lesson: Stack your chips, but never be afraid to knock them down.

Well, that felt like a pretty heaving intro into the most popular features this month, but uh, happy to be here.

What else do you come here for than to read my most intimate thoughts?

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